So today was the day. We put my mom into a home. Her Alzheimers just got too hard to deal with. She took a swing at my dad. She stormed out of the house a few times, she cries, throws stuff. It has taken its toll on us. It has been hell since Thanksgiving.
My dad and I dropped her off earlier today...and we left. I left. I walked away from my mother. Leaving her in a strange place all alone.
This isn't how it is supposed to be. My mom just turned 64 last week. She has lived the past eight years in a fog, we all have. Who the hell get's diagnosed with Alzheimers at the age of 56! Why did they take her away from me and leave me with a shell of her. No laughter, no advice, no memories of her enjoying her only grand daughter.
I am mad, angry, pissed, hurt, sad, guilty, furious.
I am empty.
I want my mommy back.
I am so sorry that your family is going through this, I know a few people that have been in your shoes. It isn't easy from what I can see. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. I hope it gets better in time for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry you are going through this. It must be so difficult, I can't even imagine. My prayers are with you and your family.
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